Taylor says I realized one, I was way too gone in my head to even be productive if I kept going and that's when I was like I'm just going to have this moment every step of the way. I'm going to either time out anyway or get way too traumatized once I actually get in the place, so I was like, alright
Alyssa says yeah, so then you didn't do it cause it was tra... way too scary
Taylor says yeah the banging on the doors would've been like... done
Alyssa says I was scared when that happened. I was like I don't really like this. and then I was like talking out loud. I'm like. Every time I would feel there's the... it felt like a shower curtain but I like in shreds, when I would feel that knew that was the room that blew the air at you really loudly, and I was like no that's the scary room, don't go in there
Taylor laughs and says "I don't want it I don't want it"
Alyssa says and then I did and I was like ahh okay why am I back in here. I thought I was gonna have to just be like okay, call it just because I'm never gonna be able to find my way out of here. I found the latch thing right when I got in there, but I didn't think what were my surroundings
Taylor says yeah cause you were trying to find the door
Alyssa says I should've thought like that, and it was next to another fake thing
Taylor says really?
Alyssa says yeah, so maybe like two feet down there was like another like thing that felt like it but it was not it. So I kept working on that and super confused what was happening, and then I was like whatever, screw it
Taylor says that's insane
Alyssa says they already called Monte into the Diary Room. I doubt it's for his room
Taylor says I mean I hear them in there right now, so maybe? I would hope
Alyssa says maybe they know him well enough
Taylor says it's three in the morning, like please. I mean they definitely pre-buy a majority of the stuff anyway so...
Alyssa says that's true and they knew who won before we did our thing
Taylor says yeah
Alyssa says I did hear you say please alcohol. So if you want someone to drink with, I will crack open a cider
Taylor says yes and cider's my go-to so yeah, just gonna need a loose softener tonight
Alyssa says just one before bed
Taylor says just one before bed. Drink some water afterwards
Alyssa says and we'll be fine
Taylor says we'll go in the front room, fall asleep together. It'll be great
Alyssa gets out of the shower
Taylor says who do you think he's gonna put up?
Alyssa says Brittany
Taylor says really? okay
Alyssa says that's what I think. I don't know. She asks Taylor who she thinks
Taylor says either Turner or Brittany, but I don't know
Alyssa says I don't know either, but one of them has to go up
Taylor says well, you know. That was close. Like, nine seconds? Holy sh**
Alyssa says when they switched up the order I was confused
Taylor says yeah but for the suspense and the drama. Either way. Poor thing
...
Alyssa says what a day
Taylor says we have to do the whole song and dance of one on ones. And then do noms
Alyssa says freaking exhausting
Taylor says Terrance and Michael in one night
Alyssa says that is a crazy combo of people
Taylor says roll up to the jury house together
Alyssa says they're gonna be so confused. Do you think Terrance knows there was a double?
Taylor says yeah they tell them. They'll go out and be like hey what do you think. Who do you want to see next? Well maybe you're right and we've gotta get you off stage cause guess what, it's double eviction night, and they're like ohhh!
Alyssa says oh okay that's fun
Taylor says me, the former beauty queen who just watched the seasons before, coming to the show
Alyssa says true, I haven't seen most seasons in like forever, but
Taylor says yeah they told Tiffany last year I think
Alyssa says that it was a double?
Taylor says yeah
Alyssa says it's just pretty crazy that. I'm just happy we survived that which is amazing. And now knowing how Michael was, I couldn't imagine him actually being on the block
Taylor says that, right? That was crazy
Alyssa says I was shocked
Taylor says I was like you're way too well put together in this amount of pressure and time, this is amazing. You've gotta go. This is too good. Gotta go
Alyssa says I know. And then he's like bye. Dipped out. Joined the other who just dipped out on us
Taylor says personally, not a fan. As a viewer, f***ing iconic. That's gonna be a good exit. "I have one thing to say... (shwoot)". I'm like okay
Alyssa says bye
Brittany joins them
Taylor says I keep wanting to talk about it. I don't want to rub it in, but like nine second oh my God. You crushed that
Brittany says I was close
Taylor says Alyssa was just saying that they were banging on the doors as you got closer. All this... mm mm no, no. Hard no
Brittany says oh yeah
Alyssa says like they banged on it. Like you heard them when you were doing the door thing. That freaked me out
Brittany says yeah it was scary
Alyssa says I was like just remember it's fake, it's fake. I had to keep saying that cause I was like uh, I don't love this
Brittany says I just was expecting someone to grab me
Taylor says I asked, I was like will someone grab me? And they were like we cannot tell you, and I was like no, you need to, you don't understand, this is
...
Brittany says at what point did you call it?
Taylor says when I was 10 minutes in the crawl space shaking and crying still
Brittany says really?
Taylor says yeah
Brittany says God
Taylor says I was like okay... if I try to continue, even when I get in the room I'm just gonna stay in one place and do the same thing, and that would be 20 minutes right there. I was like I will not be able to finish this. I will just time out and be more traumatized so...
Brittany says yeah you don't need that. I know, even when I finished I was like oh gosh, I said out loud, I was like Taylor's not gonna like this
Taylor laughs. They're probably gonna show yours, and then it'll cut to me like no no no
Brittany says literally said that out loud
Taylor says I think Michael would've loved it. I was petrified. Like heart, jacked up.
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Brittany says I really thought I was gonna win that won
Taylor says yeah. Sh** you were right there
Alyssa says nine seconds
Brittany says it's hard to go back and just think of all the times. Just like nine seconds
Taylor says nine seconds is nothing.
Brittany says that's everywhere. I could've just been faster in the first room. I could've just been, you know. You look back and you're like man... I said a little prayer, I said if this is for me, I'll come through, but if it's not I understand
Taylor says but I mean you can't be mad at yourself for nine seconds
Alyssa says ours was two seconds on the BB Comics
Brittany says yeah, how crazy was that
Taylor says yeah, and you had a closer margin to Monte than I did to Michael on comics. Oh and I felt real good about comics. I went back up to DR too, I was like "yeah wooh! I think I got this one in the bag..." no
Brittany says close, it was very close. I would've won if Michael wasn't there
Alyssa says that's what everyone's gonna say for the whole season
Taylor says "yeah if he weren't there, it would've been my comp"
Taylor says I wanted to tell them a message, but also out of respect you want to like... your job is to not just go do things in jury house. Like I love you and this is our moment. But I also wanted to tell him like make sure Terrance doesn't do any f***ed up sh**. Like hold him accountable
Brittany says oh he's going to make sure of that. If there's any time for Michael to leave, I'm sure he didn't feel it there in the moment, but it would've been this week. If he was gonna leave any week, he would've wanted it to be right when it happened because of that. Like Terrance is not gonna have an opportunity to f*** up jury now.
Alyssa says is he still planning on doing that?
Taylor says yeah
Brittany says I mean now that Michael's not here I mean
Taylor says no, he very much was like, lots of threats. Lots of threats with me, and I'm like you can't threaten me. Bye
Alyssa says that's disappointing that's how his game turned out
Brittany says yeah I just want to apologize to Michael. I was just so taken back that he was
Taylor says throwing your game out
Brittany says yeah I still don't understand that but I also get it now with a little bit of perspective that he was jut trying to do anything he could possibly do to... to stay
Alyssa says you're gonna apologize to me?
Brittany says that I didn't hug him goodbye
Alyssa says did he try?
Taylor says no he got up and walked out
Brittany says he got up and walked out but when we were sitting there while you guys were voting, he just kept on saying, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, and I wouldn't look at him, I just was so upset like
Taylor says well yeah, of course you were upset
Alyssa says rightfully so
Taylor says you don't have to regret not hugging him
Brittany says yeah, I just should've. I wish I had more perspective in the moment to recognize like you're just doing what you try to do. I guess I was so caught back that it's like well I wasn't trying to throw... and I had a lot of sh** on him. Like I could've very much said... wasn't trying to throw him under the bus. He wasn't trying to do it for me, so it was like okay
Alyssa says I didn't think he would do that. I thought he would just give reasons why he should stay. he did, but then he went a little off the deep end
Taylor says yeah he didn't say about you in his individual pitch to me. He didn't say a word. It was just why he should stay
Brittany says and I think he's gonna regret that because even when I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off, and he's like go talk to that person. He's like go talk to them. I'm like ahh, I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing right now. I'm so freaking overwhelmed. So I don't know. It just sucks how it ended. I'm sure he's going to regret having said that, and also having left without... saying goodbye to people
Alyssa says yeah because from what I got from Michael was that he always would've gone out and been like alright like, you guys got me. This is where I go but I think he just was so caught up
Brittany says I don't know how he was surprised by it but whatever
Taylor says I think normally people have the full week to go through the process and he was still in...
Brittany says but he knew one missed comp, he was done. He knew that. He knew it
Alyssa says and it was all because his belt broke
Taylor says so what actually happened?
Alyssa says it became detached? Did you see that?
Brittany says his belt broke, yeah, on the middle of it
Taylor says oof
Alyssa says did he get it fixed?
Brittany says I don't know
Taylor says you just grab onto it and still win it. Ugh, wow
Taylor says I was debating on whether or not to tell you guys what happened, but by the time I got back here I was like it's gonna be too obvious that I'm like traumatized. So... but yeah I'm
Alyssa says calmed down, yeah
Taylor says calmed down. We'll do these. We'll have our ciders and have a good week
Alyssa says yeah
Taylor says I think we're gonna have a really good week
Alyssa says I think so too
Taylor says just gotta win the veto. I would love for one of us to win it too
Alyssa says I know
Taylor says you need to win something girl. Like please, the f***
Alyssa laughs.
Alyssa says literally my thought in my head ?? Like this is my one. But like Bowlerina, I think I would be decent at it
Taylor says do you think you'd be good
Alyssa says I hope. I don't even know what's left. I thought I would be better at the memory comp thing
Taylor says yeah me too. It's funny the strategy that Turner said he had is what I said I would do when I was watching seasons before coming here. I was like yeah like that's how I'll do it. And then I got here, and I was like nope nope
Alyssa says they all looked so similar like pink and purple
Taylor says there wasn't even a purple, it was just the pink. The pink looked purple. That's why I was confused. I was looking for a purple one, so I was like okay well I guess red, and it was pink
Alyssa says I know I was always guessing between two and it always seemed to be the one that I wasn't picking
Taylor says we have to win this veto cause Turner has three HOHs now. Monte has two HOHs and a veto
Alyssa says we don't have sh**. You have one HOH
Taylor says one HOH. We gotta get in the game
Alyssa says big time
Taylor says cause I'm not about to let these people railroad us. Let's not let what Michael said be true
Alyssa says yeah. Cause he did have a point
Taylor says I was like you're not wrong. But you're offering me to be carried by you, or carried by them, when I could just be fine and fight for myself
Alyssa says yeah. He's like you need me. I was like damn
Taylor says oh yikes, okay. Ouch.
Alyssa says not what I wanted to hear but okay
...
Taylor says but yeah first thing Turner said was Alyssa's not going out on my HOH, I said absolutely not
Alyssa says thank you. I appreciate that
Taylor says it would be devastating for no reason
Alyssa says he's like I'm gonna have to put you up, but trust me, it's okay. I really don't want to go up again. We'll see. At least we all get to play. It's like four of us on one
Taylor says really good odds. Given the track record, really good odds. So...
Alyssa says yeah we'll have to see. I'm gonna have to stay up late every night to keep up with you guys