It's Monte, Taylor, Alyssa, Turner, and Brittany outside
Alyssa says and I'm gonna try not to get emotional but everyone keeps saying when I go into the jury house like I'm not gonna be able to make it through this week. But hopefully I still have some fight left in me, like Taylor keeps saying oh in the comp on Thursday, like she's just staying for sure, but I hope you guys still hear me out
Turner says whenever you make it. I wasn't saying when you make it this week by any means
Alyssa says it feels like you're saying like oh this week when you go to the jury house, just be prepared, cause what if I don't go to the jury house?
Turner says that's not at all what I mean
Alyssa says okay, cause that's how I'm feeling. I'm feeling like I don't have a chance, but I hope that you guys hear me out because I'm feeling like sad about that
Turner says this week or next week or the week after
Alyssa says thank you. Cause I'm like ugh, that sucks. Maybe I'm just overthinking it
Monte says I think you, yeah
Turner says I think you are
Monte says I think you are
Alyssa says I'm like uhh, it's scary being on the block
Monte says yeah
Alyssa says and then being like "when you go to the jury house, just so you know"
Turner says I should've said if you go to the jury house, but I didn't think of you even being on the block
Alyssa says thank you. Okay I appreciate that, cause I'm like ugh. It's just a lot.
Monte says yeah, it just got me thinking about Kyle. I was like where was this. This guy was a paranoid dude
Alyssa says I guess so
Turner says big time
Monte says I think he was a really paranoid dude
Alyssa laughs
Monte says he was just walking around in fear all the damn time. No wonder why he was staring into the abyss every thirty seconds. He was probably just thinking "f***, they're conspiring against me"
Alyssa says he told me that. He said "whenever people think I'm zoning out, I'm thinking about the game"
Turner says that's creepy as hell
Alyssa says he's like "in the shower... when I'm just sitting there staring out like in conversations, I'm just thinking about the game" And I was like what is there to think about?
Brittany says oh my God
Alyssa says but yeah he must've been just completely, I don't know. And he never really asked like questions to know these things. Like why didn't he ask me more about Old School or ask me anything like that? Everybody has made more assumptions I feel like about me and my game. You guys can ask me anything.
Monte says the thing is, I remember him specifically saying that there is a day that you tried... he was saying that you tried to walk back what happened with Old School or something like that
Turner says I recall that
Monte says he was like yeah she tried to walk it back dude, but I know that it's a thing
Alyssa says I told him. I came to him and was like hey, I just got approached with this. I don't know what to do. I'm telling you this as someone who cares about you so... that was not a slip up, me being drunk. I was not drinking at all that week. That's why I was like that's so hard to believe. You had me convinced that I was drunk. But I was like I don't think I was. I think I made that decision pretty consciously, but sorry that was a misunderstanding. You guys will watch that back this season and understand or whatever but that was definitely a miscommunication, and kind of a mess up, and that's what a big fight was with Joseph and stuff at Dyre Fest. I don't know. I didn't want to believe that. I wanted to believe that Ameerah slipped up with Joseph or there was more to it. Hearing that, my heart was shattered hearing that I was the reason that anything formed, so... that was Big L. It's okay, we're here now. We don't have to think about that stuff until we watch it back
Monte says yeah
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Turner says whether he said that or not I think we still would've thought the people not working with us...
Monte says yeah
Turner says ...are working together
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Monte says it was just how everything went down week two, to be honest. It was so reckless. Which it seems like it was Ameerah. However she decided to disseminate that narrative that Pooch needed to get out, it was so aggressive that anybody with a right mind who was working with that group would be like wait, you're just telling me that he needs to...?
Alyssa says yeah, Ameerah convinced Jasmine. Jasmine wasn't coming swinging with that idea
Brittany says that's what I said. It was Ameerah's HOH, not Jasmine's
Alyssa says it was Ameerah convincing Jasmine, cause I think Jasmine was "uhh like I don't know". Something about Taylor rubbed her the wrong way the first week, so she was like set on that. That's why I really didn't know what was gonna happen, but I knew at some point, Ameerah was set on that, and I was feeling like that was probably what was gonna happen that week and that everybody... you (Monte) got told by Ameerah, and everyone kind of just fell into that
Brittany says and then Ameerah was throwing around names, wanting to target me
Alyssa says of who, of her like chopping list or whatever
Brittany says yeah, so people she's working with, she's throwing around names into her chopping list, and she tells Joseph that, and Joseph tells me, and then I'm like what the f***? I'm supposed to be working with her. She's throwing around my name
Turner says she's throwing around my name, and then I'm HOH so... goodbye
Monte says it's weird cause she would go up to me and say Joseph is way too emotional. Look at him, us, talking to Pooch right before his eviction, we have to watch out for... I can't trust him. And then Joseph would then come to me like yeah, Ameerah just said that she can't trust you and (laughs), I'm just like oh this girl... you know... I don't know
Alyssa says she was just crazy, but that's crazy to think that you guys thought that
Brittany says don't think it's all you. Ameerah played a big part in this too