Alyssa gets up and leaves the back room and sees Brittany (11:37 AM BBT)
Alyssa says hey. I was just wondering if someone was ?? sleeping
Brittany says no I think it's just me and you
Alyssa says oh
Alyssa and Brittany hug in the open room
Brittany says I'm still doing it
Alyssa says really?
Brittany says yeah, I am. Because in the off chance he's lying to me, I couldn't live with myself if it was ??
Alyssa says I need... my mic
They go into the back room to talk
Alyssa says I was thinking of saying whatever happens, either way I love you anyway
Brittany says I think that's good. Here's what he said. I was like shouldI tell her yet? Have you told her yet? And he was like no. He's like it's just gonna be major uncomfy and I just don't want to have to experience having to do that. He was like we're at the point of the game where I just can't make Monte mad. I can't make Taylor mad. He was like I thought if I gave her a sympathy vote, make you mad. I was like (waves both hands no) that's not my thing. You know where I'm voting. I'm voting Taylor. I've been working with Taylor since the beginning, I'm like I'm in. It's not me. So he's like yeah so you know, it's just gonna be like a surprise. She's just gonna go. So I was like oh okay, so you're not gonna tell her you're not gonna give her a sympathy vote? He's like no. I wasn't gonna do that ebcause of the whole making them mad thing, I was like she's gonna be devastated. Like I don't think she'll ever talk to you again. And he goes yeah, and the thing that I told you. He was like yeah she said that but I thought tha tif our friendship hinges on that like if it's that brittle then maybe it's not that strong of a friendship. Like that pissed me off. And I was like... and he's like well... and I was like that's not my place. This is like totally your decision. I said as somebody who just got betrayed by a best friend.. it's really hard. I said thank God you didn't put me in that position where MIchael had to vote against me or I had to vote against him. I was like it was hard enough just being on the block next to him. I couldn't imagine if he voted against me. Like that would just devastate me
Alyssa says yeah. I appreciate you saying that. I'm hoping tha tif I have that conversation like, please like just
Brittany says and then he was like well that gives me... he's like well I hadn't thought of it that way. He was like I'll think about it. And I"ll tell you what I end up doing. I was like hey, that's fine. You can tell me or not it doesn't matter but just some things to consider
Alyssa says yeah.
Brittany says I don't know. He could be lying to me because they're worried about me flipping. And if he gave me any sort of indication that he was gonna give a sympathy vote then I would go flip and Taylor's out. He could be lying to me. But also I thought it was interesting, like you know how in the kitchen yo uwere like Turner you make up your mind and you're set on it, you don't ever switch, like, I just had that conversation with him where he was like "you brought up a good point, maybe I'll reconsider" and I'm like you're not reconsidering
Alyssa says yeah
Brittany says he's not reconsidering. So... he's lied to me a million times. He's also betrayed all his friends a million times, so I don't know
Alyssa says thta's what's harder for me because like at the beginning he told me I'm not gonna change my mind so maybe he's lying to Monte and them and maybe he'll keep me. Or maybe he's lying to me because he did betray Michael when he said he wouldn't put up an LGBTQ person. And the nKyle, and like everybody that has thought he had their back. He just kind of (slaps hands together)
Brittany says he does that. He's lied to me like exclusively so... Hopefully he's lying to me. Hopefully
Alyssa says I'm gonna try to talk to him. I'm gonna try, like I'm not gonna give up
Brittany says you have my vote no matter what. For all the reasons I've outlined, but also because we don't know where he's at, so if he does it, then it's done. Can you imagine if it was 1-0 and it wasn't me? I would be...
Alyssa says 1-1?
Brittany says yeah if it was1-1 and it was Turner that was the one and not me because we thought he was gonna do something else and I didn't do it, no. It's gonna be 1-1. That one is gonna be me or it's gonna be 2-1.
Alyssa says 2-0 yeah
Brittany says 2-0 sorry
Alyssa says okay that makes me feel better
Brittany says just because I don't know so I'm gonna do it and then you know what? They can gun after me. That's fine. I want him to be the one that feels bad that he didn't do it, knowing that you could've stayed if he just would've flipped. He will be the one feeling bad about that, not me
Alyssa says I want him to understand like okay, why doesn't he see value in me staying. Like he can't win next to Taylor
Brittany says I think he thinks there's no way you would stay
Alyssa says and I feel like I can't tell him anything otherwise, cause I can't risk him freaking out
Brittany says cause he's locked in with Monte. If he... I know it's so hard, but if he had any sort of indication that I was flipping, he would tell Monte, because then that makes it so easy that I'm... it's for sure that I'm the target. Juts can't
Alyssa says it's not one of those
Brittany says just can't
Alyssa says I know. I know. So I'm just gonna play on like no matter what happens, I love you, you're my best friend, but like please like give me an opportunity for Monte to break a tie, like that means everything to me, like please
Brittany says yeah. I don't know, you could even say something like even if Monte were to break the tie and vote me out, at least I would know you tried for me. Like... cause he knows Monte's gonna break the tie and you're out of there. I don't know
Alyssa says the way he told me. I won't do that. It felt real. My gut was telling me that he's gonna keep me.
Brittany says I know. I hope so. And you know what? He's lied to me a million times so maybe what he's telling me is a lie and he is gonna keep you, and he just can't let me know. That's why I'm for sure gonna vote for you to stay
Alyssa says thank you so very much. I hope so. I freaking hope so
Brittany says and we'll deal with the downfall. The fallout if he's lying
Alyssa says yeah. Alright, well thank you so much. I'm gonna try
Brittany says yeah. Yes. Do you know what Turner's gonna Turner do?
Taylor says he's keeping me
Brittany says he's keeping you?
Taylor nods
Brittany says not Alyssa
Taylor shakes her head no. Did you talk to him?
Brittany says no and gets up
Taylor looks off into the distance and nods her head to herself
Brittany sits back down and says I'm surprised by that ?? well, his game is screwed (laughs)
Taylor says oh well
Brittany says oh well
Taylor says yeah. Yeah... Yeah
Brittany says well we just need to win HOH
Taylor nods. Pack for the HOH room, not for the jury house. That's what I keep saying. I'd love to see you get it, but laser focus. HOH, veto, one or both. Both of us. That's all it is
Brittany says yeah
Taylor says but yeah. I'm just trying to take it easy. Do what I do these Thursdays when I'm on the block. Just, not screw myself at the last second. So, either way I know, you know. Let's say Turner is a crisis and flips last minute, I know you got me. I know Monte has me but I would like to avoid that
Brittany says I know, yeah
Taylor says as long as you hold your vote strong. We're strong
Brittany says yeah
Taylor says but, yeah Turner is here to play the game. Turner He loves Alyssa down. That is his girl but... yeah. I just hope they'll be okay out here.
Brittany says I actually know they will not be okay
Taylor says I know she's really been going through it
Brittany says with me she expects it, but with him... especially when it can be a tie
Alyssa comes by and Brittany gets up from the bed
Alyssa says the time has come Taylor
Taylor says we must pack (laughs)
Alyssa says I know I've been avoiding it. I literally had my suitcase out last night and I laid down and I'm like I'm not doing this. I refuse
Monte and Taylor talk in the bathroom (1:46 PM BBT)
Monte says poor Turner can't remember any day of anything. He was like what day was... something. Was it day 56? I was like what? No it was day 37
Taylor says that's the one thing I need to brush up on
Monte says tighten up on
Taylor says yeah. Weeks don't matter. It's the days that matter. I was going by weeks for the longest time
Monte says mmhm
Turner walks into the bathroom
Taylor says Brittany asked me 10 minutes ago if you were going to keep me or if you were throwing a sympathy vote, and I said he's keeping me, and now the two of them ??
Turner says mmhm, well, I hope she was talking about herself, not me
Taylor says knowing Brittany she's probably not just talking about herself
Turner says yeah. Knowing her that is probably the case
Brittany talks to Alyssa in the back room (1:46 PM BBT)
Brittany says I'm sorry I just wanted to make that public so you knew. This is my official telling you I'm not voting you. But that's fake. I just wanted him to know like yeah I told her.
Alyssa says yeah. Okay
Brittany says, so to catch you up. I told you what he said. I don't know how it's gonna be. I talked with Taylor.
Alyssa says she think it's a split?
Brittany says to her knowledge, the plan is that he's voting to keep her
Alyssa says oh really
Brittany says so... no sympathy vote or anything. But then again I'm like would they tell her? All I know is Taylor's been upset with Monte that she's even in this position, so if she felt like 100% for sure for sure, why would she be upset?
Alyssa says because like I feel like Monte... cause Monte was telling me when I had that conversation with him that he felt really guilty about not getting to know me and stuff, so maybe he had a conversation with her and he's like "okay we don't tell Brittany and we don't tell Taylor if you think that's the best decision, and the votes are locked in and we could do that"
Brittany says yeah... so. I don't know. I'm gonna vote for you regardless
Alyssa says thank you
Brittany says because I don't have anything to lose. I want you here. And in the off chance he does flip, then you're here, as opposed to oh my God he flipped and I thought he wouldn't, and now we're in the same position, only my vote was lacking. So if you end up going, I will just tell Taylor I felt like she deserved a sympathy vote. I knew for sure Turner wasn't gonna do it, so I knew it wouldn't have made a difference
Alyssa says you can say anything you want. You can be like she was pressuring me and crying. I don't care.
Brittany says Taylor and I are gonna have to have a really honest conversation after this anyway because it's like okay here's all the stuff that I knew you were very much a part of
Alyssa says yeah
Brittany says so... whatever. But...
Alyssa says we'll see what happens with HOH, but... I mean I hope... I don't know.I just hope that he is honest
Brittany says if you talk to him next. Just be like Brittany told me officially like she doesn't have my vote. SO I know it's gonna be unanimous if you vote against me or it's gonna be a tie and Monte's gonna break it, and I know that Monte won't vote to keep me, but it would mean so much to me just to show... just make him break the vote. I know I won't get it but make him break the tie. Like, I don't know, that's the only thing I'm thinking anyway. The votes are so locked in for sure, especially if you seem upset like you know you don't have my vote now. I made it very public right then that I need to go talk to you and it was serious... didn't hide that from him. If they want to ask me, I told you that I'm locked in on Taylor. Already told Taylor again that I'm locked in on her like
Alyssa says yeah so I think that's good. I'm just gonna talk to him while I'm in here while I'm packing reiterate how thankful I am for him and having my back in this game. No matter what happens with Monte. If I stay it's good for him and stuff like that
Brittany says just say it would mean so much to you if you had a vote from a friend. At least you had a chance with Monte. You don't have any chance if he votes against you. You have zero chance. I don't... I'm like 80% sure he's not gonna vote for you. He's betrayed like literally everybody he's ever been friends with. I just don't... Wouldn't you think jury wise? like why screw you over?
Alyssa says that's what I'm saying. I'll be like if you vote to keep me and Brittany votes me out, and Monte breaks the tie and I leave, I'm gonna go to jury, I'll make sure I have your back. I'll try to fix things with Michael. I'll try to fix things with like... I don't know...
Brittany says yes tell him that
Alyssa says ...Kyle and be like you know I have your back
Brittany says even if you don't stay, I'll have your back, like don't betr... yeah. I just think he's too scared about like getting Monte and Taylor mad
Alyssa says like Monte can't even play HOH
Brittany says I know. I know. I know. I think they just need. They need to make this three little ?? to get me out next week. They're just banking on the fact, and here I'm f***ing sick now. I'm trying not to get in my head
Alyssa says I mean I appreciate that. I talked to Turner, and he just told me I'll be okay
Brittany says okay. I am voting to keep you.
Alyssa says thank you so much
Brittany says if it blows up in my face, I don't care. I know I have to win anyway
Alyssa says if my best friend is the reason that I leave then that's f***ed up but...
Brittany says I know
Alyssa says I appreciate it
(They hug)
Brittany says "you officially know"
Alyssa says thank you
Brittany says it could happen. it could happen
Alyssa says yeah
Brittany says I really hope so. Oh my God. We will celebrate. We'll come into this room and we'll jump up and down
Alyssa says yes we will. I will literally scream and cry
Brittany says I literally was visualizing it, I was just like okay, I'm just picturing you and me at the end, you and me at the end. Like...
Alyssa says I'm just picturing Julie saying by a vote of 2-0, Alyssa, you are safe
Brittany says I know! You are safe! That's what I was picturing
Alyssa says and then one of us wins HOH, and we can get to the f***ing end. If I can make it through this week, we have a good shot
Brittany says I really do. I really do, so...
Alyssa says okay, thank you. I trust you 100%. I'm going to work magic on him and hope for the best. Thank you. Love you
Alyssa brings Turner into the back room (1:52 PM BBT)
Turner says out of curiosity, did Brittany talk anything serious?
Alyssa says yeah. I mean she just told me that she's not voting to keep me, which I assumed was what was gonna happen but she was just like I love you but this is just not, like you know Taylor's been my girl blah blah blah, but I appreciate her being honest with me at least
Turner says there you go
Alyssa says so it's just down to Monte. I still have you?
Turner says mmhm. Have you talked to Monte?
Alyssa says yeah. I talked to him more and he was like it's gonna be thinking about the decision. I don't know if I should talk to him today cause when I talked to him yesterday he was like I honestly feel really guilty for not getting to know you better and putting you in this position. I'm gonna cry. But I'm gonna think about it and do what's best for me, and I'm like okay at least I have a chance
Turner says I would talk to him once or twice today. If you're alone with him for a minute. Just be like hey
Alyssa says yeah, it just means so much to me to feel like I have a chance, you know. If I went out at your hands, I would literally like
Turner says okay alright, take it easy. You have a chance. It's hopeful
Alyssa says okay, thank you
Turner says that's a good thing
Alyssa says but regardless of what happens. If I leave today, you're still my best friend
Turner says well that's freaking great. Love ya
Alyssa says you're the best thing that's happened to me in this freaking house. Being your friend and like knowing that somebody actually has my back because people just lie, and I don't know it's just been really overwhelming this whole experience
Turner says yeah
Alyssa says I hope you know has been really f***ing overwhelming for me, but thank you, I really really appreciate you having my back and if by the off chance I do stay, I will, if I'm HOH, obviously you wouldn't touch the block
Turner says yeah
Alyssa says I would take you to the absolute end, and I would make sure that I do everything to keep you here
Turner says that's fire
Alyssa says cause you mean so much to me
Turner says funny enough, next week, the block, who's on the block at first doesn't even matter cause it's just whoever wins the veto
Alyssa says exactly
Turner says which is crazy
Alyssa says which is a lot, and I understand, but if there's anything I can do if Monte sends me out of this house, I will go into the jury house and I will do major damage control for you with Michael, because I know he did not leave happy
Turner says he didn't love that
Alyssa says no. And Kyle or Terrance or anything, I will make sure I have your back because I mean what I said. If I don't win this game, I want you to
Turner says let's go. Thank you
Alyssa says of course.
Turner says packing time (laughs)
Alyssa says yeah
(Turner starts helping her pack)
...
Alyssa says this has been a crazy freaking week but...
Turner says actually it's been a crazy two weeks for ya. Wait who was on the block last week?
Alyssa says me and Terrance, and then me and Brittany
Turner says mmhm. Oh, you and Terrance, you and Brittany, you and Taylor. Back to back to back dude.
Alyssa says yeah it has been freaking insane but...
Turner says at least one of those weeks was only a couple minutes
Alyssa says yeah and I trusted you 100% when you were like do you trust me? I'm like oh my God what's about to happen, but yes
Turner says well, there we go, so... bam
Alyssa says but I feel more calm. I just have to keep myself calm. Do you feel I have any chance with Monte?
Turner says yeah. I don't see why you wouldn't
Alyssa says like you know him better
Turner says well I mean, he's tight with Taylor, but I don't know where they are game wise, so it could be either way
Alyssa says yeah. Which is true. But I have a fighting chance
Turner says which is huge
Alyssa says yes ... So are you excited for the comp
Turner says oh I am freakin
Alyssa says ready to gun for it?
Turner says shooken up for the comp. Yeah. I mean whoever wins the comp is in the final... finale. But I think I have the best chance to win, honestly
Alyssa says that's true. I hope you do
Turner says I also hope I do
Alyssa says unless I stay, then I hope I do. But...
Turner says whether you stay or not, I hope I do
Alyssa says very true
...
Alyssa says do you think I have added value to your game?
Turner says uh yeah. You'ev added value to my life
Alyssa says thank you
Turner says I mean as far as the game goes, yeah. You know
Alyssa says yeah I feel like you've had to do a lot for me, but, just know that I have had your back too
Turner says alright Alyssa
Alyssa says I just feel nervous. I don't know
Turner says alright, bring it in buddy
Alyssa says thank you
(They hug)
Turner says alright. Aw man
Alyssa says blegh. Breathe. I feel way more nervous this week obviously than last week cause everybody was like Terrance is the hell out of here, you know? You feel that? Blah blah blah. But hopefully, if I do stay we could hear from our family
Turner says there you go. I won't be surprised if the jury also hears from their family just in the same way that...
Alyssa says I don't think that's a thing
Turner says well I wouldn't have thought that the double eviction HOH gets a basket and whatnot cause it's never televised
Alyssa says well, that's true
...
Alyssa says if I do leave today, is there anything you want me to tell anybody in there?
Turner says um... no. I mean...
Alyssa says I mean I could unpack the rest of your game
Turner says I hope Michael doesn't take his eviction personally. And I hope Kyle doesn't either
Alyssa says yeah. Kyle knew at least
Turner says yeah, big time
Alyssa says well thank you for helping me. I really appreciate it. It makes me feel more calm
...
Alyssa says okay, but I got you?
Turner says you got me. Go get Monte. Go get em tiger.
Alyssa says thank you
Turner says yes of course. are you good? should I leave? I don't want to leave early.
Alyssa says you're good
Turner says are you still packing?
Alyssa says no, there are just two things I forgot, but I'm good
Taylor and Monte talk in the bathroom (1:53 PM BBT)
Monte says I think Brittany's trying to work on Alyssa as a jury vote for her
Taylor says mmhm
Monte says she probably thought if Turner doesn't vote for Alyssa that's a perfect opportunity for me to sit next to him and get that vote from her. She is scheming, I tell you
Taylor says hey, you know, that's the game
Monte says yeah yeah
Taylor says just gotta get that final two seat first
Monte says very very true
(Brittany walks in)
Taylor says she was just about to jump in the shower
Brittany says oh were you? Jump in. I need to get some more stuff
Alyssa and Monte talk in the backroom (3:06 PM BBT)
Alyssa says I just had my conversation with Brittany and she for sure let me know that she's not voting for me, so... At least she was honest. I still feel good with Turner unless you feel like I should have a reason not to. But I feel like I still feel good with him, so that again puts you in an awkward position. So no matter what you choose, again I know it's all love, and I just want you to know that, because if that puts you in that position then, I appreciate you just considering keeping me in this house
Monte says yeah, yeah
Alyssa says I just wanted to reiterate that today because from Brittany I was like okay, wow that really just puts me there, and I know you and Turner are tight, but I hope that... it means more to me to go out for a split vote and have someone be like it doesn't work out rather than everybody just be like okay bye because I feel like my experience here has been so... chaotic
Monte says yeah
Alyssa says that's why I tried to hard to be friends with you guys and fit in. I know friends ?? but just wanted to reiterate that and talk i tout so I"m not getting freaked out in my mind
Monte says I mean how are you... are you doing well with just the situation at hand?
Alyssa says yeah
Monte says knowing that it could be one way or another? like
Alyssa says yeah
Monte says yeah? You're feeling fine?
Alyssa says yeah. I feel like, I don't know. I know that you're gonna make the best decision for your game no matter what, so I just want to reiterate how much I respect you because I know that that's important to you. And it's important to me too but it's just important like okay now I feel like i have... at least I know pretty much where everyone's head's at, so at least I have some kind of a chance, so I don't know, I just wanted to touch base again
Monte says no I appreciate it. My thing is honesty and transparency, so I don't wanna lead you one way or another. And I don't know if you want to know where I"m leaning beforehand or, whatever have you
Alyssa says yeah
Monte says cause I don't want to sit here and like feel like I'm lying to you or whatever have you cause I feel like whatever happens at least you could look back and be like at least Monte was the one who was straightforward with me, you know what I mean?
Alyssa says yeah
Monte says so for me, next week, my biggest concern is Brittany, you know, because I know that she's been the one who's talked to everybody else but me in the game. So my biggest concern is who's gonna win HOH for next week. Since I have good relationships with Taylor and Turner, that's where I'm leaning
Alyssa says okay
Monte says for me personally, and it has nothing to do with you as a person. And like I said, if the nominations were the f***ing same, she would've been out of here immediately, and that's what I was hoping for, but sadly I didn't wake up in time, and sadly Turner wasn't...
Alyssa says it happened the way it happened, which I just appreciate your honesty. So...
Monte says I can't be the one to fiddle faddle with you or whatever have you
Alyssa says yeah. SO thank you for being honest with me, cause I'd rather prepare myself before but, do you think it would probably come down to a tie? Like I really hope that... at least Turner is my friend at the end of the day. That means a lot to me
Monte says yeah, you would have to chat with him
Alyssa says yeah. Cause I feel good, I just, I hate being blindsided, and I feel like i Have been a lot. You being honest with me means everything to me, so thank you
Monte says that's why like I really wanted to be patient with this week and see if anything happened that made me feel stronger one way or another, and then it came down to just logically thinking what's best for me next week and how I can stay safe, cause that's my biggest concern is like, me not being able to play HOH. I want the people who I'm tightest with to win HOH, so that I can feel protected next week
Alyssa says which I understand. So thank you
Monet says yeah. That's all that it comes down to. You know what I mean? And I hope me being straight up with you is better
Alyssa says everything. It's so much better. Cause I just don't wanna cry and be overwhelmed. I would much rather have just an idea what is gonna happen and how everything is gonna play out just so I can speak and be not a mess if I do walk out there, and do have to meet Julie. Then I would like to not be this
Monte says 100% and I, I think, you know, granted if it comes down to that it will be a little uncomfortable for me to have to put in that deciding vote but, at least you know now, and you know I can look at you and smile knowing that we've already had a conversation about like where my thinking is. You know, and it's not some sort of surprise. But yeah, that's where I'm leaning, but you never know. With Turner and Brittany, I don't know where their heads are really at but, just chat with them so...